Prayer

Sometimes it feels like my entire prayer life if simply filled with decisions and requests. It can be filled with anguish and struggle. Doubt and worry. 

Given: there are times and places in life where this is extremely valid to do; depends on the person and their season of life at the moment and a lot of people are appropriately at that point. I say that to make sure no person is offended from reading this and to say that I am at a different (not better or worse) point in my relationship with Jesus.

For me though,  I wonder if there is more. I think alot of my problems and issues, especially the ones I talk about in my prayer life are either brought on or made drastically worse simply by the way that I handle and think of them. We can worry something to death. We can make it a problem by thinking and worrying it into one. I get really tired of doing this. I heard a pastor talk about this and he says that now his time with God usually just looks like being the presence of the Lord. Just loving and being with the Holy Spirit. And if he has a request he presents it, but it takes no more than a couple minutes because the Lord knows all his needs. He isn't perfect, he isn't at some "perfect" point in his prayer life, but just chooses to make his prayer life about spending time with his father, his best friend, and Lord. 

I think I wanna take up this challenge by taking a few days or even one day and simply not presenting any requests to God. I will pray without ceasing but never with worrisome asking. I will simply and solely love on Him and worship Him for this period of time. And at the end of time see how it went. If I do this challenge for a day and at the end of the day realize that I didn't pray at all then I think there would be a problem. Or if throughout the day, I found it extremely hard to pray, then I think there would be a problem. 

The Lord is faithful. He hears all. He knows all. He knows when a leaf falls to the ground in the middle of a forest. He knows what I want the most in my life. His love endures forever. His love never fails. His love is the one thing that remains.

I don't know what I should title this post.

I have had a lot of great things happen to me since the last time I posted but at the moment I am extremely frustrated with the way the day has gone! why do I always seem to post on my blogger when I'm frustrated about something? I was gonna write about spreading the gospel and that I talked to a stranger for a while about Jesus last night, but nope! I'd rather have a vent sesh about how I had one of the worst days ever at work today. Im not gonna go into details about it, but long story short it feels as though I have been trying my best all day at my job and after everything is said and done, at the end of the day the only thing I managed to do was to have people get fed up with me. That's it! I would understand why my co-workers would be upset with me if the reason for their "fed-up-ness" was because of lack of effort on my part. I would understand if I had ill intentions, wrong motives in my heart, or if deep down inside I full well knew I was being lazy. I was doing my best all day and it just never seemed good enough to anyone. Tomorrow I will probably apologize for making you all read this dumb post, but this is just coming from a place of frustration right now. 

I'm just gonna go pray or something right now.

Just to put a face to a name/blog everyone...Here is what I look like! Just me bein stupid! :)

Boredom

When a child is little and they express that they are bored, a lot of times that can be translated as them being lonely. At the moment, they feel lonely. They want someone to be with them, to entertain them, to talk, and love them.

I have a pretty busy schedule with school, work, church service, serving, and CIRCLES. Even amidst all of the business of life, whenever I get a free moment I simply feel bored. I can't wait for the next thing that I have to do. I hate that feeling because like a child, it truly does feel lonely. Even as I write this, I have been alone for the past few hours and it some ways it hurts. But in the midst of these feelings I feel conviction. Because isn't God always there? What if there was a point that even if you were alone you didn't actually feel lonely. That's where I wanna be. I wanna with the Holy Spirit all the day long. Communing, fellowshipping, and speaking with him. I do do that often, but not enough.

I guess...I guess I just want more of the Holy Spirit. So Come Holy Spirit. Come. Come fill me and my brothers & sisters of CIRCLES. Fill us up so much that you just pour out of us, overflow, and flood the world around us. All we want is you. Your son, Nick.

Response to Saturday

(Disclaimer: God can speak whenever and however he chooses, but I would say the best place to host the Spirit of God if we want to hear Him speak is to be in silence.)

This is such an interesting concept because whenever I think about listening to something, I think about how there is an assumption within the definition of listening. I guess the assumption would be that when we listen, we need to be hearing something; there needs to be physical sound frequencies entering into our ears canal's. After reading this and thinking about it a lot, that is not the way to listen to God. Just as Tozer stated and as it says in Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God." The way to start listening to God is to be quiet. When I have a conversation with a person, just as it is with God, to hear them speak I must not be speaking or listening to anything else.

Let us listen to the God of all sound by closing our mouths, shutting our ears, and opening our hearts.

First Post

Hello Everyone,

This is my new blogspot that was originally created for CIRCLES, the discipleship program through Rock Harbor Church. This is my first post. This blog will primarily be used for posts related specifically to CIRCLES. We'll see how long it takes until my posts start to deviate in content from CIRCLES related topics.......


Welcome!